The creative writing, observations, experiences, and opinions, on life, and the world around him, by Kiril Kundurazieff; taking one step at a time on the Journey of Discovery, and Enlightenment, that every individual must take from the cradle to the grave.
A toast to you, dear reader, for not giving up on your dreams, your creativity, your future...
and, if you have been reading this series...for not giving up and sticking with me...
I appreciate the interest.
As a new year approaches in my life I must find the strength, courage, knowledge, and heart to take new steps to change my life for the better.
In America, and Europe, as well as for Christians in the Middle East, these days, it is not the best of times, but the worst of times, for many.
My own situation isn't the best, either.
However, I choose not to march in the streets, and blame the world for my situation, instead taking the time to gain new knowledge, and inspiration, for the challenges I know are ahead, as I work to build a new life, and even a new place, for myself in Houston and the world.
I have a good paying job I like, even as I live paycheck to paycheck unable to set extra funds aside, I have hopes and dreams related to my creative writing and those are reasons enough to not give up.
I choose to believe that it will, once again, be Morning in America, and our nation will, once again, take its rightful place as the freeist, most exceptional, most powerful, most productive, nation on the planet, leading the world to a better, more prosperous, future and leading the world in the fight against the Islamic threat it faces.
I did a Google for quotes related to never giving up as found in the Holy Bible and found a few such as...
"But you, take courage! Do not let your hands be weak, for your work shall be rewarded.” - 2 Chronicles 15:7
1. "Growth demands a temporary surrender of security. It may mean giving up familiar but limiting patterns, safe but unrewarding work, values no longer believed in, and relationships that have lost their meaning."
I chose to give up the familiar and safe life of a job I loved in 2001 when I chose to quit my job at a famous Inland Empire bookstore chain....actually what was left of it.
I had been with the company since 1984, my last 11 years as a store manager, and I had seen the company slowly die until I was the only long-time employee left except for a woman who ran what was left of the head office.
From 6 stores and a distributorship what had once been the best place to buy books in a huge region, since the 50's, could not change with the times...Over the next decade, I think, independent stores began to really find their place in the Internet Age.
I spent the next 8 months at a college bookstore before taking the huge step of becoming unemployed and not staying in a bad situation (I made the college give me a solid recommendation, which I earned).
I chose not to give up on building a better life for myself by choosing to give up on the career I had built as, during those months of unemployment, despite great interviews at several Borders, Barnes N Noble, and other bookstores, I was not hired.
I became a cashier, in 2002, at a new Target, in Eagle Rock, Ca....riding the bus to and from Pomona for 4 months until I could transfer closer to home to a store in Chino.
During this time I was encouraged to not give up on my newly revived creativity of the last few years (I'd got a computer in 1998) and became a blogger and moved out of the comfort zone of a life in familiar cities to the unfamiliar of Orange County my 3rd and last Target store, in Costa Mesa.
I had lived in a bachelor shell until I went online and made new friends and began to blossom personally and creatively in new ways (going out, taking vacations with online friends to Phoenix & Chicago). This all helped give me the courage to eventually quit the bookstore life.
"Oh! How I Hate To Give Up In the Evening, Oh! How I don’t want to go to sleep For the hardest blow of all is to put an end to my creative call: 'You've got to give up, you've got to give up, You've got to give up, it’s near midnight!'" Someday I'm going to refuse to surrender Someday I’ll ignore the temptation of the bed I'll grab my notepad and write in it heavily And spend the rest of the night inspired instead! If ev'rything goes well with me I'll be a published writer soon! "Oh! how I hate to give up In the evening, Oh! How I don’t want to go to sleep For the hardest blow of all is to put an end to my creative call: 'You've got to give up, you've got to give up, You've got to give up, it’s near midnight!'" Oh, boy! The minute my first work is accepted Oh, boy! The minute the book is published I'll put my pen away, take a nice warm bath And spend the rest of my life in bed!
The following are updates of some things I wrote on this blog 8 years ago:
Since elementary school I have been a member, in excellent standing, of the species Bookwormicus Americana, a critter that some researchers periodically think is nearing extinction but always seems to get in the mood for procreation and rebounds quite nicely, thank you very much!
As a Bookworm of impeccable credentials and long-standing I have seen the ups and downs of the book business and the ever-changing tastes of the reading public.
Many of the books in my collection are more than 400 pages long and some are twice, three times, that, so it amuses me when I see the look of fright on some folks faces at the thought of reading something more than 250 pages long, and/or more complex than a Stephen King novel.
I started out reading Hardy Boy and Nancy Drew books, then mysteries and horror, then Star Trek.
As my interest in history, politics and then movies, and later creative writing, poetry, classic American books, cycling, hiking, walking, cooking, cats, humor, Houston, Texas, faith and inspiration took hold my tastes in reading choices have changed accordingly.
Can I get a rousing AMEN BROTHER! from the congregation?
"I have always felt that it was commendable to buy books. I grew up with a liking for reading my own books, instead of someone else's. This preference I still have. I have my books strictly for use. I turn down the pages. I even tear out a few, if I need them. Books that I really use are much the worse for wear when I get through with them. I always mark them. When I read one of them a second time, which I seldom do, I generally can't remember what I meant by the marks I put in it the first time. But it gives you a feeling of having dug deep into the book, and it intensifies your sense of the ownership of it, to make big black marks down the side of it as you read. So I have always felt that one should buy as many books as possible. They are not like food, of which one should buy only as much as one can consume at the moment. Nor like clothes, of which a wise man will buy as few and as cheap as he can get by with. But of books he should buy all he can."
Rev. Carl S. Patton's opening paragraph in THE BUYING OF BOOKS from the Feb. 1922 issue of The Atlantic Monthly.
I read this paragraph for the first time in 8 years and see myself...still.
I took one of my longest bike rides in 2002 and re-took it in 2007 (camera in tow, though the pics in the posts don't seem to be working these days); The first time around I got left behind by my riding companions and would have been justified in giving up and going home...
I chose not to and the rewards were great indeed, even more so when I decided to do the ride again 5 years later, and turning it into a series of 5 posts.
I went to Animal control to pay the fee for Elvira's 2015/16 license and explored the Cat Adoption Trailer at the new BARC facility, meeting kittens and cats who have hopes of finding new forever homes.
Due to rush hour traffic and a stop to get a new bucket of cat litter I was later getting home, on the bus, than planned.
This evening I decided to search this blog using the term "give up" and see what came up.
I was surprised how many posts, related to my various issues of the last 8 yrs., and related to writing prompts were of an inspirational nature and touched, even briefly, on the theme of not giving up and of moving forward.
Almost all of my paycheck, of yesterday, has been spent, mostly on bills (Knorr rice sides, canned stewed tomatoes, canned corn in the pantry, squash and apples in the fridge, and chicken legs in the freezer, woo hoo!), so reading some of these old posts for encouragement and inspiration, reminders of how far I have come, will do me good.
Attention correspondents: E-mail sent to the blog e-mail addy, including those regarding postings/comments, and/or in response to correspondence with/from the author of this blog, are not considered confidential and may be shared online as I deem appropriate.
PERMISSIONS: Original Content of this blog is Copyrighted, and owned, by Kiril G. Kundurazieff, Jan. 2010 - Present...
The Author, Owner, has no problem with people excerpting a reasonable part of one of our entries in a post of their own, as long as attribution to him is made, and a link to his original post is included.
Please DO NOT take our pictures...unless you ask us first! Thank U!