The creative writing, observations, experiences, and opinions, on life, and the world around him, by Kiril Kundurazieff; taking one step at a time on the Journey of Discovery, and Enlightenment, that every individual must take from the cradle to the grave.
Dear readers of this blog and of Meowsings of an Opinionated Pussycat:
It is my distinct honor and privilege to invite you over to the blog Sopphey Says for, as far as I can remember, my very first “guest blogger” appearance, in a decade of blogging.
Sopphey Vance is a poet and online publisher, with a pair of interesting websites, and last week she had a post where she encouraged her readers to get a copy of a short, but cool, book for fiction writers. She ended her piece with an invitation to her readers to submit essays for her to share on her blog.
Sopphey is someone I first encountered last spring, through the month long "My Name is Not Bob April Platform Challenge" held by Robert Lee Brewer, and we are both part of the new Wordsmith Studio community that was born out of that on Facebook.
I thought about it a bit, and realized I might have the perfect thing to share, a piece first written in 2008, but hardly read by anyone at the time, or since. I ran it through spell and grammar check for the first time, and then sent it off.
In November I wrote a post about the notion that each of us, especially creative writers are a "pencil in God's hand." While I have struggled for 10 years, as a blogger, to find my place in the blogosphere and build an audience, God knows where my creative journey will eventually lead me, even if I do not.
As I wrote, then, I’ve begun to think about new ways to wield that pencil, thanks to the advice and encouragement of friends, and believe I was meant to relocate from CA to TX to build a new life, personally, career-wise, and creatively.
Every once in a while a pencil needs to be sharpened, and books I’ve read over the past year and a half, and continue to read, by “pencil sharpeners” as diverse as Julia Cameron, Glenn Beck, Norman Vincent Peale, Seth Godin, Chris Gardner, C. S. Lewis, Dinesh DeSouza, David Brog, and now Joel Osteen (whose church I've attended since October), have inspired me to think and write in new ways. Other such “pencil sharpeners” are writers and bloggers I am encountering, especially my friend Amanda Socci, the Creative Idea Gal.
As readers know, I have decided to see what I could learn from the February “chapbook challenge” being written by Khara House. Day 1 was “an encouragement to participants to dig out their material, from the recent to the long forgotten, and beginning the task of organizing it in some way.”
Well, I focused on my poems and song parodies, over 100 of them, then I decided to organize my 100 word musings and 100 word cat stories as well. All are on Word Docs, and in folders on my computer. There are many other things that can be similarly saved and organized, but I’ll leave them for other days.
When I bought more bookshelves the other day, and finally put all my books out for display, I was reminded that this pencil had been collecting pencil sharpeners (books on writing, poetry, and related prompts) for a decade, but had only put a few of them to any use.
Now comes this: I had an interesting encounter during the Lakewood Church service, the evening of February 2.
As I let a nice black lady into my row, and she sat a couple seats away, she looked at me and asked if I was a book author....I told her no, but I was a writer with hopes of someday publishing, why did she ask?
Before things got a tad too, um, rambunctious for us to hear each other she said I looked like someone she'd met there a few weeks ago. After the service we met in the lobby and I asked her again why she thought I'd written a book. She said she'd encountered a guy, also carrying a book bag, who said he'd recently published an e-book and was trying to sell it on Amazon. I said, nope it wasn't me! I'm a writer, a recent transplant from Ca., with a couple of blogs and a decade of material a friend is encouraging me to organize into possible book worthiness, but I am nowhere near ready for publication yet. I said that I hope to be maybe someday, and she laughed and said that maybe God meant for her to mistake me for the other guy as some sort of encouragement to me.
How the heck do I know? I'm the last guy to be trying to figure out what is in the mind of God!
Articles and websites referenced for this story:
1. 30 Days of Gratitude Writing Challenge #25: A Pencil In God's Hand.
The idea is that this "Radiation Therapy Consult" would be covered by a different funding than what I'd filed an application for, allowing me to be seen before my 6 months residency in Texas is reached.
The consult will allow MD Anderson to determine if the malignant melanoma in my right eye can be successfully treated by them via an outpatient procedure, or not. If it can then the procedure will be covered by my county gold card, or maybe this funding they talked about...if not, and I have to be admitted for treatment, then I will have to wait until my 6 mo. are up, under my original application.
Meanwhile my cat, Nikita, had his first serious medical exams since before my initial eye issues in Novemeber, and the news is mostly positves there.
From re-designing the looks of my blogs, to choosing a new way to present links within a post, to choosing to write a post, first in MS Word, then moving it to Notepad, before bringing it to the Typepad editor, from challenging myself to submit a speaking proposal to the Blog Paws pet convention, and a myriad other things, including what jobs to look for here in the Houston area, I have begun, to paraphrase my friend Amanda Socci, to challenge myself to try new things, and let go of fear and stretch myself into unfamiliar territory.
For a long time I just called myself an "aspiring" writer, then, in the past year or so my attitude began to change as I decided to call myself a writer, no "aspiring" about it.
Yes, I still have much to learn, but I am trying now to "boldly go" where I have never gone before. It's a slow, and challenging, process, but I am not afraid to try.
For example, my cats Nikita and Elvira, over on their blog, Meowsings of an Opinionated Pussycat, have, for years been "Offishul Repurrters" for a site and community called The Cat Blogosphere.
Neither one, however, had a badge to show for it, mainly because the person who had made the original badges was no longer involved with the site by the time Nikita had first begun to submit "Noos" items.
I'd never thought to get a badge done in all the years since because everyone knew the cats were "repurrters".
There have long been a variety of blogger "awards" making the rounds, and I received my first in 2009, and 2nd in 2010, and it is always cool to get one, and to find others to pass them on to.
This award is bestowed upon those bloggers the giver believes inspire through their writing.
All of the various social media awards making the rounds have rules, and some have variations for the same award. I'm sticking with the version of the rules for this award that Amanda chose.
1. Pay it forward. Award the Very Inspiring Blogger award to 4-7 fellow bloggers along with a specific reason why you are inspired by their blog.
2. Promote. Thank the blogger who gave you this award and the bloggers who inspire you by linking back to their sites. Bonus if you include specific URLs of special blog posts that inspired you.
3. Add it. Add the Very Inspiring Blogger award badge to your site.
4. Talk about yourself. Last but not least, list a few things about yourself that others may find interesting or surprising. Make sure the number of things about you equals the number of nominees (step 1).
My latest medical results are in and my left eye is right where it should be in its recovery from the vitrectomy. My vision has returned, and I can bend over and lift, with no restrictions, and No longer need to use eye drops.
As for the right eye and its cancer; I turned in the paperwork for applying to be seen by MD Anderson hospital, but unless they decide otherwise I might not be seen by them until I’ve lived in Houston 6 Mo. (3/20/13). It is out of my hands.
The good news is that the condition of the eye won’t change in any significant way in the short term. I learned that if I end up being treated by MD Anderson, the treatment will lead to 2 years’ worth of recovery as the melanoma recedes and clears up.
Of course the other option is having Ben Taub hospital take the eye out completely. That’s why we need to have an evaluation by MD Anderson, to choose the best treatment.
The latest blood test showed my b12, folic acid, iron, and a couple of other levels are normal.
I'm letting the sun shine in, facing all my challenges with a grin. If I smile I will never lose. My dreams and potential I will win, by letting the sun shine in. By facing my future with a grin I open up my heart and let the sun shine in.
In the wake of my last update I went to my next appointment this morning, and the news is mostly positive.
The liver ultrasound came back with no onions, and the anemia is of no real concern, though my folic acid and B-12 levels were such that another blood test was done so they can decide if to prescribe 1 or both.
Since it's been 6 yrs. since my colonoscopy they gave me a packet to get samples for testing so as to see if I need another one.
My next appointment related to my eyes is on Monday.
I knew it wasn't gong to be easy. I just have to trust that it will all work out somehow.
I turned in the application, and documents to the County liaison with MD Anderson. She had been trying to reach them last week to ask about the strictness of their 6 months in TX requirement. She got through this morning, and the person she talked to said I would have to wait until March 20th, when I will have lived here for 6 months, to turn in the application.
My liaison lady, who has worked at her job 18 years, says that sometimes if the situation is serious enough, and there is a month or 2 to go before the 6 mo., they have relented, so she and my docs at Ben Taub, who had forwarded my medical records already, will keep trying. In the meantime the docs will monitor my medical situation.
Next appointment there will be the 14th.
I checked my test results on my "My Heath" page on the county website, and while most of my blood results were positive, including my Phenytoin level, I received a letter telling me I have mild anemia and will have to have a check-up on that. I called and since my next appointment with the county is the 11th it will be brought up then.
My problem is financial, right now.
I have just $165 in my checking and savings combined.
I don't know if I can get a limit increase on my credit card, and am reluctant to cash in my IRA, but may have to survive.
I have my electric bill, credit card, virgin mobile, and renter’s ins. yet to pay this month, not to mention the doc visit co-pays, Cat food in a couple weeks, and more money on my transit Q-card as needed.
Then my rent is due by the 3rd...
I am still expecting a 2nd job interview, following the first one, and stopped by the store, Sunday, to let them know I was still interested.
I called the local office of the Cancer Society of America and they gave me a list of area resources to look into, so I will check them out and learn more.
I am tired, worried, yet hopeful that somehow everything will work itself out.
As I wrote before, this is no time to be freaking out, and so I am doing my best to not do so.
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