By the end of the week I will be broke.
My rent, phone/computer, and Typepad annual, with the help of my latest small paycheck from Walmart, on Thursday, will clean me out but for a few buck to keep my checking account open.
I am trying to apply for the LoneStar Foodstam program, but since the website is causing me a problem I will got to an office to get the form.
I will get my 2nd $500 from Hill's, for my Ideal Balance series, later in the month, but...
Have I hit absolute rock bottom at last? I don't know, I just don't know.
As I sat in a booth at a Jack-in-the-Box, across the street from my vet, nursing a diet Dr. Pepper and waiting for the rain to subside before heading home, on Halloween, I contemplated my future, as I gazed at the beautiful urn carrying the ashes of my original muse, Mr. Nikita, who I recently helped to Rainbow Bridge (Mr. Nikita RIP: My Original Muse...Never to Be Forgotten).
My sweater reads, “Real men Admit they Love Cats” and let there be no doubt…I loved Nikita with all my heart and soul.
I came out in the pouring rain to retrieve him because the management of my apartment needed proof he’d kicked the bucket in order to lop off $20 a month from my rent, which I am allowed to pay 4 days late, this month only, with no late fee.
Instead of tossing his ashes to the winds, someplace, I am going to make a spot of honor to set him and the clay paw print I was also given, among my cat book shelves. I think the best public tribute I could ever make for him would be to take him to an open mic poetry reading, set him next to me on the stage and read 2 or 3 of “his” poems.
Not knowing how I will pay the rent and my few bills, through at least the end of the year, I am looking for another job with more hours and better pay, on a reliable schedule and that is not temporary. Without being able to put funds on my Metro Transit Q-Card, instead relying on just my bike, I am not sure how difficult a job search will be, or if I could manage working 2 jobs.
After a year of Houston job searching (and 3 yrs. unemployment), with few interviews, I wonder if my age is a problem as well as my resume making me appear over-qualified for some odd reason.
My re-newed apartment lease is 9 months and, if I can become secure enough to find cheaper rent in a good neighborhood, even if further out from metro Houston, by then, it would take a load off my mind.
My other creative muse, my Tortie Miss Elvira, seems to have accepted Nikita no longer being a part of her life, partly helped, no doubt by the distraction of a big sore on her dainty behind and a cone around her head. With antibiotics and an ointment the sore seems to be healing nicely and she has continued her new-found extra friendliness with me by sleeping on the bed all night and sitting on my lap a while, from time to time, if I pick her up and set her there.
I had a follow-up on my eyes which showed more progress on the reduction of the cancer in the left one and I’ve lost 13 lbs. to 196 ½.
I will soon finish a writing project for Ideal Balance cat food and have submitted a 3000+ word story to a pet themed publisher for consideration for an anthology book project; this is something new for me, another step, alongside the earlier 2 guest blogging posts and 2 poetry rejections, this year. I want to do more of all this, going forward, even eventually organizing my 4 blogs worth of archives as I ponder publishing options for the best of their material.
Doing all of these involves my learning new things, even getting help, if possible.
But I have to have a stable, income generating, life that allows me to do things and get out and about.
I have ideas percolating in my brain about where to take my blogs the rest of the year, heading into 2014; there have been articles and news reports about cats and about cycling, among other issues, in Houston, for over a month now, that I have wanted to weigh in on and I want to find time to explore and comment on and about various Houston area websites and blogs that I have discovered over the past year as well.
I want to get out and about more in this town, also, not just to open mics, but other places and events (Especially if free) that I can write about and meet people. The only way I am going to get any attention and interest in my writing is to make my presence known and that includes on my Facebook and Twitter.
I have been reading the book Break Out! by Joel Osteen and, despite all the difficulties I face I continue to believe that, God willing, the best is still ahead for me and that I CAN overcome my challenges.
Lookout Houston! The Mad Macedonian, the Mad Houstonian, the Cycling Dude, and one sassy, Opinionated Pussycat are still living among you. :-D