Yesterday, my friend and creative drill sergeant, Amanda Socci, the Creative Idea Gal, blogger at Write Non-Fiction in November, and published book author to someday be, left a pair of comments on this blog:
This is my attenpt at answering her....
Thank you, Amanda.
About action, I know, my friend.
My spirit has kept me creating for these 3 years, kept me going through injuries and surgeries, an unending stream of medical appointments, unemployment, a move, and steadily dwindling financial resources.
It has led me to do many things I've never done before, from submitting poetry, participating in unique and challenging writing events on my blogs, getting an essay published in the local paper, attending a bloggers conference, a poetry workshop, being accepted into a writers' association, and meeting encouraging new friends, including yourself.
It has led me to think about actually publishing my writings in new venues.
I have not had a chance to work on the table of contents, I am ashamed to say.
My hesitation? Rooted in a past I’ve found ways to get past, since becoming a blogger in 2002, rooted in being a loner who found excuses to let my work schedule, my worry about medical issues and unemployment, and my inexperience with new technology and the doubts that not having many readers brings, hold me back.
Here is a quote I found, on the website of the Houston Writer’s Guild (Their new Blog): “a writer without an audience is just a hermit.”
Is that what I have been for 11 years?
Creatively, and personally as well, the past 3+ years have been the best thing to happen to me in my life, especially since the spring of last year, despite the unemployment and medical issues.
I have written so many essays of an inspirational sort, 2 month long daily challenges about gratitude and even did a month long, daily, 100 word cat story series.
I am being paid to write for the first time, and hope to somehow attend the Cat Writers' Association Conference in Irving, TX, Halloween weekend.
The rest of this month I am going to finally get a chance to begin writing responses to those very important 45 questions you asked me in your recent profile of me.
I have a job, at last; Is it a case of me "just settling"?
Yes and no. My funds were going to run out in 2 months and despite all the great interviews I've had since January, few though they were, Wal-Mart hired me when no-one else would.
Yes, it's temporary, and just a bit more than minimum wage, but it has the potential to become permanent in 6 months if I stick, and I DO have 19 years retail experience, 11 as a store manager.
I have to start somewhere, in order to get myself firmly settled in my new home city and bring some much needed money in.
Having a job, at last, is one less thing to worry about and will allow me to focus on other things, like trying to organize my blogs, submitting poetry, short stories, and essays, figuring out chapbooks, e-books and other self-publishing options.
God, I know it’s not going to be easy, just contemplating the challenges I face….But, it’s time to somehow learn how to move beyond dreams and turn ideas into reality.