Over the last few days I've written some things in my Morning Pages Journal, inspired by my reading of the book Finding Water by Julia Cameron, that I wanted to share...
What makes me feel grounded?
1. Caring for my Cats by feeding them, playing with them, and cleaning their litter box.
2. Riding my bike on a nice long ride, or taking a nice long walk.
3. Reading a book.
4. Doing the laundry.
5. Cleaning the apartment.
6. Cooking my own meals, or fixing a sandwich ( Though I need to do more of both!).
7. Paying my bills.
8. Going Shopping.
9. Riding the bus.
10.Corresponding with friends via e-mail.
I was born to be creative and am finding ways to access that creativity. I can't help but believe that the hand of the Great Creator has guided my creatvity the last 14 years and is guiding me now, somehow.
Roses are red, violets are blue, I believe, Dear Lord, my future is elsewhere, I truely do.
I am ready, God, for good omens, good news, positive events and steps that will take me to where I want to go next with my life and where you are guiding my steps. Taking these steps I want to believe that what I write on my blogs and in my journals will prove useful, entertaining to those who encounter it and blessed. I believe I am blessed by the friends I've made as a writer and blogger and am grateful for their advice, support and encouragement.
Please, Great Creator, send me ideas, support and guidance going forward into the future. Show me the way and give me strength and courage to survive. Send me the willingness to listen and to write and to act on what I hear.
As Julia Cameron writes, I am coming to understand that "my creative condition and my spiritual condition are one and the same." Making my writing is an act of faith, a movement toward the expansion and growth of me as a person and writer.
I pray to the Great Creator to free me of my fears, help me be a conduit, a channel for new ideas to express themselves. I am willing to be guided toward doing new, creative, things especially through my Feline muses, Nikita and Elvira, just show me the way, what am I meant to do.
Julia Cameron writes that "there is a Divine Plan of goodness for us and our work, but we must go along with the plan for it to transpire. Careers zig and zag and we must tack with them. We must be willing to be made what it is God is making us."
I must be willing to surrender to a power greater than myself.
As friends know I believe my future is elsewhere than in Orange County and this belief, I feel, is part of the process, the plan for my life that the Great Creator has for me. It's why I can't get it out of my head since last fall.
Both Joseph Campbell and Julia Cameron believe that once a person reaches middle age it's possible to see how fate has guided us to this stage in our life. In other words, it was meant to be, this 14 years of writing and blogging, the personal career path and physical ups and downs. The Great Creator has guarded me, guided me and led me to learn many new things, meet new people, moving me down the path of my life journey.
My dream is to start fresh, elsewhere than where I'm at, in an environment where I don't have to fear being unable to pay an exhorbitantly high rent
Julia Cameron writes that "all writers need coconspirators to cheer them on in their endeavors." I've had more than a few of those over the years and I'm grateful for them and their support.
"I admire the courage and strength you've shown in discovering your writing roots. You have discussed self-doubt and wonder whether others have enjoyed your writing. I've found a similar path as you declaring myself an actual writer for the first time at the age of 40, which is one of the reasons why you and your particular brand of creativity resonates with me....Well done!"
Ray Bradbury died recently, and he once wrote that "you must write every single day of your life...you must lurk in libraries and climb the stacks to sniff books like perfumes and wear books like hats upon your crazy heads...May you be in love every day for the next 20,000 days....and out of that love remake the world."
I wish I'd had the chance to meet him, because I'd ask...Hey , Ray, is it OK I prefer used bookstore, thrift store and antique shop stacks, to libraries? :-D
I'm going to succeed because I'm crazy enough to think I can!
I believe good things are coming down the road, so I plan to keep on walking.
I recently read the following: "Everything happens for a reason. Eventually all things fall into place, until then laugh at the confusion, live for the moments."
I hope so, I believe so, I trust so.
I'll feel better about the laughing part once I get to the other side of my current situation. :-D
Meanwhile, let me end this essay with a welcome, and a bit of advice, to any new readers who may have wandered in....
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