The other day I went to Forest Lawn, in West Covina, to pay my respects to my parents (Mom in the upper left, Dad in the lower right), and I had a lot on my mind.
On a clear day one can see Mt. Baldy, & the San Gabriel Mountain Range, in all their magnificent glory.
That day was not one of those days.
Partly cloudy, breezy, warm, & I'd just hauled ass, by foot, up 3 levels of the hillside, to where my Mom & Dad are laid to rest, a row apart.
Change is coming to my life, and I felt it important to stop by.
I should have been sad, and tearful, but I wasn't.
I feel a love for my parents, especially my long suffering Mom, who raised my sisters, & I, alone except for the assistance of some remarkable neighbors.
I feel a sense of pride in who I am, & what I've accomplished in my life, & believe that Mom, & Dad, are looking down upon me in pride as well.
My Father struggled to get to America, from wartorn Europe of the 1940's, Mom traveled by car from KY, as a young adult, with her brothers, & 1/2-sister & her husband, to Ca., and worked the seasonal packing plants circuit, in the late 40's & early 50's, before settling down in one place.
Now, here I am, having moved from Pomona, to The OC, & living here for over a decade...and change is coming yet again...
I think, and believe, my parents would understand, applaud, & encourage me, every step of the way, as I continue my life's journey.
So I was there, on that hillside, at their graves, to pay respects, say thank you, ask for their blessing, and for their spirits to watch over me, and guide me, until that day when I am called by God, and my fate, to at last join them in eternity forever.
Useful Idiots have been rioting in the streets, lately, in America, and around the world, and all I want to do is begin the next phase of my life on a firm, and secure, footing.
These people want to take, and take, and take, because they believe it is owed to them.
I want to give, and share, because I have a talent that would be a benefit, not just to me, but to others.
10 Things I've learned to do despite my doubt that I could do them....
1. Speak in front of an audience, & give a presentation.
2. Read my poetry at an Open Mic.
3. Take trips by airplane, alone.
4. Use a computer.
5. Use Powerpoint, & Adobe Photoshop Elements.
6. Cook for myself.
7. Ride my bike 66 miles...twice.
8. Learned new jobs to earn a living.
10. Move to some place new, & start my personal life, and career, over fresh.
Dear Lord, give me the strength, & courage, to move forward in the direction you want my life to go.
I thank you for all that is good in my life, and believe that you give me strength to even dare to bite off more than I can chew, and accomplish my dreams.
I believe in myself, and have faith in my abilities!
I am a writer, struggling to get noticed for my work, and talents.
I am good with people, and helping customers on the phone, & face to face.
Please, Lord, show me the right path...Amen